Fml

Holiday 2011 - Find What Speaks To You (by MyPier1)

I just want to love someone like I’ve never been broken..

Three lines mark my wrists…
& i know it’s a self destructive behavior, don’t worry my therapist covered that part but you know what after the fucking day i’ve had this behavior is one of three that I think I’m ganna pick up again and you know why? Oh you of all people should know why.. What were you just ganna trail me along you’re stupid trail of bread crumbs, were you ganna continue to create small tears on the edges of my heart until i knew what it feels like to get played? well news flash ass hole! I’ve already known that for years.. I’ve had my heart hurt before but somehow this one hurts just a little too much.. you’ve completely punched a hole through my heart, i can feel the vacancy and the emptiness flooding back and to be honest I really just want that void. I’m safe there and the only person hurting me, is me. Finding out that you never missed me or cared for me was just the fucking beginning to my day.. you know what followed? REALIZATION.. I AM NOTHING..
I’m failing at:
school, love, life, work, friendships, social life, health.. etc.

I didn’t need today and i definitely didnt need the hard sobs i cried for hours but I couldn’t stop them..
I’m tired of feeling useless and not good enough for anyone. All i know how to do is disappoint and I finally disappointed myself. I’m lost and I know I’ve hit rock bottom..
even my therapist can’t help me out of this one..

I’m finally back home.. in my void..

& i have one thing to say to you.. FUCK YOU.

sarawithouttheh:

Should’ve when you had the chance.

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